Board Thread:News and Events/@comment-27603392-20150130112319/@comment-27603392-20150423083119

Confession #502:

To be honest, I'm really jealous of Monty. But it wasn't only him. I'm generally jealous toward those who had strongly inspired me. They actually had achieved something grand. Unlike me, "talented" but restrained with mediocre achievement.

Perhaps my time has yet to come. I just need to keep working hard and stop being ungrateful for what I'm capable of. I made achievement some years ago that I inspired "few" people in Japan, Brazil, China, and other few countries that they made artwork after my creation. Few of them even consider me worth to surpass. I might as well expand that achievement further.

And to be honest again, I'm also jealous to those who are not as great as my inspiration figures yet step ahead of me. Whenever I saw those who are able to do things I couldn't, I ask this to myself "When will I finally able to use ALL of my skills in full power?".Its like there is a wall between us. Its not because I'm not skilled. I'm like a guitarist without his guitar. I haven't grasped the "guitar" that worth of my talent yet.