Thread:Lazerninjastudios/@comment-10337166-20161103100602/@comment-24052959-20161121083756

The word "suicidal thought" kinda triggered me and those screenshot reminds me of my past behavior.

As someone who also have uncontrolable mental issue and suicidal thought (Mine probably worse than suicidal thought), let me tell you my experience.

This is reality. Autism, asperger, personal issue, and another sort kind of issue. No one would care. I tried those exuses for many times and it never worked. What matter is your deed. That is what I learnt.

But how come I rarely cause trouble? Because I can control my mental issue? No. Honestly, I'm not really sure how. I developed common sense and code of honor and it told me that what I did was embarrassing and wrong. So where did I unleash my "mental issue rage" when my code of honor prevent me from doing "what I like"? This probably sound stupid but I really do Imagining an imaginary person to unleash my rage at. But that wasn't the only method I did. I still have several other way and it would be too much to write.

Thing is, I acknowledge what is like having embarrasment from my own behavior. That very feeling is what driving me to change. I'm not a proffesional but thats my experience.

Also I have a good news for you : Your mental disorder doesn't disable your ability to communicate with letters, and understand compound of letters as you are able to reply jord/Nice thing after reading his message as well as writting those thing. So use them to find a way to change your behaviour. You're not like my autistic cousin who couldn't talk, comprehend words, communicate with letters, and to identify what dangerous and not.