Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-5726563-20140730121919/@comment-5726563-20140801050046

LastZephyr wrote: Torrent's leaving?

Hah, Torr, you're like, half the reason I even check back here sometimes, on the off chance that I might run into you again (^.^'). I've honestly never been a big fan of OC-making in general, especially when it gets to such a large size like this wiki, when things get really hard to organize and maintain.

Weel, in that case, although I barely come on here anyway, I feel like there's even less of a reason to stay with the Fanon. It's come a long way since March 2013, and a lot of people, the friends I remember from back then are just that: memories. Good ones nonetheless, but I never stopped thinking fondly of that time before the episodes started coming out, when everyone knew each other and what was going on. Now it's impossible to get that tight community feeling, since the wiki's gotten so populated.

But anyway, thanks to you especially for befriending me way early when I'd first joined Wikia. it was a lot of fun, and I really enjoyed exploring my creative side with everyone's 1st Gen OCs. But it's probably about time I moved on, too. I did notice that people here like be criticize the admins without understanding how much of a huge responsibility it is to review OCs, day after day after day.

All in all, at the risk of sounding overly sentimental, I'd just like to say Good luck in life! Thanks for all the memories!

Oh hey, but you better not pull a "Hope" on everyone and make a big deal about leaving, then come back ^.^' Nah, I thought about leaving quite a few times before, it was just recently I realized how little I care about my position anymore. I kept my job as long as I did because I wanted to help people, and maybe keep the wiki from dying again. And yeah, a good bit was pride. But why shouldn't I have pride in my work? It was me and Arren that kept this place alive when everyone else wanted to abandon it. It was us that got rid of Chaos, and it was honestly the best moment I had on the wiki, and probably the last time I really enjoyed my job completely. We were conquering heroes, the ones that stayed when Bori and Flora, and the other admins of the time left. And we did our part to fix the place up and get it back working, and it worked. We did it. Not anyone else, us.

After that, it was still a bit fun for a while. But then suddenly there was no big bad, so people attacked the Admins, or Admins attacked Admins. And I put myself in the job to deal with it, and to deal with power abuse to make sure we didn't have another Chaos. And I couldn't do it. I couldn't solve the arguments, not all of them, or even most of them. I was used to being on the side of the general population, when we all agreed with each other. Now, I was a deliberator between two sides, meaning I was on no side but whatever side had the rules on their side. And that's not something I can handle, or anyone else that I know of could handle, not for free. That's stressful work, and doing it for no pay is almost absurd.

But this is a wiki, we do it for the love of the site. But my love for the site could only run so far before I couldn't take it anymore. I just reached that limit now. I may come back as a user, possibly, but never as an admin. Even user is a slim chance, and I'll only do it because I still like the show, and most of the members. Maybe one day I'll enjoy RPing again too.

So to answer your question, no, I won't be pulling a Hope. One, we already have Flora for that, and two, you couldn't pay me to keep this job.