Board Thread:Role Plays/@comment-5999656-20160207063839/@comment-25582638-20160603030049

Cyzarine stopped her hand from reaching the door's handle. She heard the last words of Raizel's apology. She heard Fen's cold words. None came from Platinum's.

That's when she realized that the Fen she knew have changed. In that very moment, her dark blue eyes returned to its calm state.

Back to her old calm self.

Inside the room, Raizel felt regret apologizing to Fen and Platinum. That's it. The exploitation of her weakness when she let herself become vulnerable. The rebel was at fault, yes, and this should be expected.

But there's one thing she realized:

Does Fen's words matter now that she apologized already?

“So, this is where it will all end.” a cold voice spoke from the door. Raizel was about to walk away and instead looked at the young girl making her way to the room and closed the door behind her.

“Cyzarine.”

“I'm sorry for putting you in this position, Ms. Heidrich. It should not happen again.” she said with mixed formality and stiffness.

The young girl gazed blankly at the heiress before looking at Platinum.

“Ms. Roads, I'm sorry for being a liability to you and trying to rescue you. I have come to realize my shortcomings as well as my inability to follow the court's order to stay away from you and Ms. Suzhen. Once again, I'm very sorry.”

Then back at Fen with hands behind her back similar to the snappy posture of a soldier.

Even if she apologize, the heiress will reject it. Her efforts will be rejected. But isn't that what Fen wants to hear to do the same to Raizel?

It's a normal response of a normal person. Cyzarine knew that very fact but it doesn't mean she would accept it. That's just who she is.

If Fen did her new way, she will do her own old way.

Straight, rotten, selfish, and cold. She will be the worst people that Fen and the others ever met. Whatever comes out of her mouth should make everyone realize, especially the heiress, who is in control of their fate the moment they all met: Cyzarine “Royal Pawn” Bluthardt. After a few seconds of thinking, Cyzarine began speaking.

“You're not willing to forgive, I understand that. It's true that I messed up your life. But here I'm about to apologize when I heard you blaming and degrading people who caused your current circumstances. Someone told me about not letting others take control of me. Those words finally made sense to me when.......”

“I look at you. Worse than me. It feels so good, right? Mutilation of people's souls whom you wanted to suffer, die, go to hell, be reincarnated and repeat that cycle because you hated them so bad you wish they were never born.”

The young girl sighed, knowing that she's exaggerating everything.

“Despise me for who I am. Accuse me for changing you, for making you easily give up, for making you feel defenseless to the point you'll do everything to make me nothing more than your scapegoat. I wanted to understand you so you can understand me but I realized that...... you're never different from me. And you will never be, like how I let people take control of me before. There's nothing left of you for me to understand other than your willingness to degrade me and Raizel and take joy of it. Put on the mask of a victim, take it off to show your predatory side, isn't that right? I don't have problem with that actually.”

Cyzarine wasn't only telling to Fen. She was also telling this to her victim self who couldn't move on from the past. In reality, however she's cracking bit by bit inside. Hopefully, Platinum will sympathize with Fen.

“Tell me Ms. Suzhen, do I look happy that this happened? Do I look happy at everything I said to you? Please just say yes so we could move on.”

The rebel was right calling her a wimp. But not now.

“But I owe you my freedom from that man and my family. I'm sorry for what I've caused to you, Platinum, and Raizel and I know that my actions are irreversible, especially when I almost killed you. I cannot promise that I'll stop killing. It's part of my job description. One thing I can promise though is that I'll stay away from of you, just like what you all desired.”

One of the aspects of human nature is to their refusal to understand and accept of what is different and they cannot understand.

“And you should have told the Daybreak Syndicate to let me die because my family knows that I disobeyed them...... again. They won't blame you it. Really. I'm replaceable y'know. Next time, you should kill me or let me die. For both of our sake.”

People have expiration dates.

Without waiting for the the trio's response, the young girl turned her back on them. There's nothing she wanted to say nor hear more. The deed is done. All what she could do now is move on whether they like it or not.

In fact, she has nothing against them. If they're just going to pit every single fault to her for what happened, sorry but she has her own problems to deal with.

“Take care of yourselves.” as soon as she said those words, the young girl pulled the door, only to meet Mavelle stuttering to the four that Platinum's free to go.

“Ah thanks, Belle. And I'm very sorry for the trouble.”

“It's a-alright, milady. I am humbled that you needed me for Ms. Roads........” Cyzarine slowly closed the door behind her and smiled sadly at Mavelle.

“I'm glad to hear that. Now let me bring you back to the orphanage.” with that, she lead the way to the elevator with the song thrush faunus in tow.

“As you wish, milady.”

The young girl felt relieved at some point. She apologized but made things more complicated between her and Fen. Practically, with everyone else. Cyzarine only felt pity and disappointment for the heiress but she wasn't going to blame herself for what happened to her.

No one can hurt you and make you feel inferior without your permission

Fear is what drove everything to what they are now. She created it. It's just that Fen didn't fare well and is now taking that wheel.

Win-win situation? It was nothing but an illusion of democracy and peace. In everything you do, there will be antithesis of it. The antithesis of top is bottom. A perfect example is that love is the antithesis of selfishness. Another is that good is the antithesis of evil. What happened today is an example that people will never appreciate: the shattering of Cyzarine's cage and the world Fen entered as a consequence for the young girl to attain this position.

There must be a fall guy. Fen inevitably took that role to make her grow. How long she is going to carry it and drag it around, there's one certain path she can never stray: Searching for a candidate to become her fall guy in order to straighten up herself whether she likes it or not.

Something must happen. It's one of the the cruel realities they all must live in if they wanted become a better people. Hurt each other blindlessly, learn from pain, and grow up.

How is she (Automne) though?, Cyzarine wondered as they entered the elevator.

Other than that, she has to talk to her mother about their contract then call one of her aunts. She needs a psychotherapist beside her.

Just when Cyzarine left the room, Raizel quickly followed the suit.