User blog:Penguinlord352/My Resolve

I have a hard time gathering myself together to actually do stuff. My self-discipline is incredibly lacking. I'm easily mistaken for a lazy person, when I'm just a bit too busy drowning in my thoughts. I'm still mourning Monty a bit right now. He was a great person, and that's actually something I have never said lightly. I'd explain my philosophy on that now, but that isn't the point of this post. My point here is to express myself because I really need an outlet for what I'm feeling right now. I'm doing this to gather my resolve. Writing this is actually helping me focus on what I have to do right now. When someone dies they leave parts of themselves behind in the hearts and minds of all those they met or inspired or helped in some way. Monty left behind Remnant for all of us. It is a symbol of a realized dream, proof that we can achieve what we set out to do. I'm currently in the midst of achieving my own childhood dream, at least the current step of it, and I'm having trouble seeing it through. Monty's words have been a driving force for me, keeping me moving. In a sense, Monty was the person who reached out and helped me up out of my thoughts to save me from drowning in them. I never got the chance to meet the man, and I never even got to try to correspond with him. I regret that intensely. I owe him something big. I intend to match his resolve as soon as I am able to in order to repay him. I just needed to get this out of my system in order to step a little bit closer to that day. That's all.