Board Thread:News and Events/@comment-27603392-20150130112319/@comment-27603392-20150203084734

Confession #416:

Last weekend has been complete shit for everyone, including myself. It's all piled up on me and now I need to vent it somewhere.

I've cried so many times, it hurts so fucking much. RIP Monty. You are the best.

I tried my damnedest on the Reveiwer v2 contest. I did everything I thought I could do it, that I could have been a winner with that hard work. Yet that apearntly wasn't enough. I don't know what I did wrong or why what I thought I was trying to do. I couldn't even find the guideline for reviewing that's floating around Fanon. I just couldn't please anyone with what my best could do.

It's probably because everyone else is just better at writing than me; it's just another goddamn skill I suck at. I'm not good at anything I do, no matter how much I practice. It's fucking bullshit.

Maybe it's about time I give up and just leave the Internet forever? I obviously don't have the aptitude for anything I try hard to be at least somewhat average at.

I just want one thing, anything to be nearly the best at. Just one thing to call my own, to have practiced so hard for and actually gotten better at. Is that really too much to ask for?