User blog comment:SamjaySyndrome/What are your aim?/@comment-24052959-20150205043815

Ok, I've heard plenty of you. Time to share mine :

I've always been wild ever since Junior High School. I do what other students don't. Unlike most other student, I already able to do 3D, coding, and animating. These skills are self-taught. I love how I am able to combine these talent to create a cinematic and simple gameplay. It eventually grows into desire to create something greater.

Unfortunately, those kind of talent wasn't appreciated by people. People back there just prefer either being a gangster, playing video games and never wonder how it made, and being an intelligence person who would scored "A" in a row. Most of them can't see the talent behind my sheer stupidity.

Then I resume my journey to fulfill my certain desire to create something greater. I wasn't sure what is it the great things I'm trying to create. But over the course of my journey, I learned about mary sue, character development, I've meet a lot of inspirational people who also have similar desire to mine and actually manage to achieve something. They motivate me to keep moving forward, giving me hope that I could get into their level.

Believe me, it wasn't centered to Monty Oum. I'm going to list some of these inspiration people bellow.

Abdul Ismail, David Setiabudi, Freddy Wong, Reuben, Tatsuhiko, Monty, and now is Xatoku.

Then there is a friend of mine, whose background was born from the street. His achievement probably not as much as Monty, but he is living his dream and on the way to become something. It teaches me that I should keep fighting even if it put me down to the abyss. If that happen I am encouraged to rise again surpassing the original surface whence I stood.

So back to the core of this blog : Why I create OC in RWBYverse?

Because I want to learn the truth so that I am devoid to clicheness, mary-sue ness, insensibleness. In fact, It already helped me developing the character and the world concept in my originalverse. I develop my originalverse way before Red Trailer, and plan to stick to it while using other universe like RWBY as a stepping stone.

To be honest, I would be scared if my OC become canon to RWBYverse. Why? Because my OC in here is adaptation from my Originalverse. I won't feel comfortable using my OC design in my originalverse when RWBY already use it.

What is it that I am trying to achieve on the Fanon?

To gain experience. From the begining I intent to create an animation that can attracts a lot of people. To be bluntly honest, I wanted to be acknowledged. Example Monty, he was acknowledge that Roosterteeth hired him, providing him facilities so that he could create his idea better than when he could do alone. I desired the facility to create the "great thing" since Junior High School. It could be from anything else beside Roosterteeth.

Few people in the fanon are actually giving me a chance to practice my skill before creating a grand example. That's why I'm helping certain someone in something. Those who notice me in chat might guessed who that certain someone might be.

Is it releated to what I dreamed of?

It obviously is. I will take every important experience I got from this fanon and apply it to the "great thing" I've been desired to create since Junior High School.

I also have several reason why I am determined to be good at various specialization. First, I already able to do it since Junior High School, I already reach this far and I might not as well stop. Second, I'm not art student, my department was a leadership-related. I learned this essence about leadership : "A leader must familiar with the business proccess and activities of his company. Or else he might get fooled during supervising.". What I've been doing might lead into becoming a company. I must prepare for that. But other than that, I enjoy doing my stuff.

Overall, I cannot afford to fail. Beside, I've suffered humiliation, certain people tarnished my name out of slander due to ignorance caused by false hatred from their trauma, some people out there still recognize me as an useless moron who has no talent. I don't want to die when they still view me that way. I want to proof these people wrong, I want to make the reality itself against their logic basic about me. After all, there are plenty of disability people who had proven an expert wrong. These people are also my inspiration. They taught me one thing : Persistence.

Like I said, my inspiration is deeper than being centered to Monty. All of them including Monty inspired me of something. They are equally as important.

If you notice my behavior in chat, I am too a handicapped people. Specifically, mentally handicapped.

PS - I almost cried when writing this.